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Feeling Bummed

I’m feeling a bit bummed lately.
Maybe it’s the weather,
Maybe it’s a lack of exercise.
Could be the lack of sunshine.
Probably a Vitamin D deficiency –
You know how those endorphins and serotonins
get all out of whack sometimes?
I’m definitely out of whack.

I have no energy or desire to do anything,
So I just sit

Brain dead.
Writers’ block.
Nothing to say.

I haven’t been in a very good mood either.
Feeling non-social.

Don’t mess with me,
Just leave me alone, please.

Well, not all alone…
Funny, when you’re feeling like
this it’s when you really need to have
folks around.
Folks who “have your back”,

And will stand with you
No matter what.

Someone who can help you see
That there is beauty in the world.
Today is done,
And tomorrow is a gift of a brand new day.

Sometimes I feel like a little lost lamb.
I’m all alone,
Stuck in a bad place.
I need rescuing,
I need help.
I need someone who cares about me,
Who will seek me out
And lend a helping hand.
Someone who loves me and is willing to
Search for my lost soul.

It’s nice to know that He is always with me,
Even when I feel bad.
He won’t leave me in my despair.
He comes to me when I need Him most.

“Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name;
You are mine.
When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
And when you pass through the rivers,
They will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
You will not be burned…
For I am the LORD your God.
The Holy One of Israel, your Savior.”  Isaiah 43:1-3

Nothing like a ray of SONshine to brighten a
bummed spirit.

Psalm 40

I waited patiently for the Lord;

He turned to me and heard my cry.

He lifted me out of the slimy pit,

out of the mud and mire;

He set my feet on a rock

and gave me a firm place to stand.

He put a new song in my mouth,

a hymn of praise to our God.”


Well, I didn’t really wait patiently for the Lord…more like an impatient, temper-tantrum throwing toddler.  I was in the mud and the mire, I had fallen head first into the slimy pit of circumstances that were beyond my control.

Yes, I cried to the Lord.  I pleaded, I begged, and I cried.  I also couldn’t see.  In my distress, and desire for the outcome of my choosing, I did not see when the Lord heard my cry and pulled me out of the mire.  I didn’t see that the rock He placed me on was a rock of His choosing, one that He knew was better for me.

It took me a long time to understand this.  I thought I knew God’s Word and Ways pretty well.  But ‘knowing’  and ‘applying’ are two different things.  First, I needed to overcome my pride, and accept things as they were.  The past was no longer mine to deal with.  God was setting me on a new course.  The past, the present, and the future all belong to God.

Even as I began to accept the circumstances of my dive into the slimy pit, I had not yet reached the point of singing a new song of praise to God.  As I read Psalm 40, I was nodding in agreement with the first verses.  Yup, that is exactly how I felt – in a muddy, mirery pit.  Then came the question: Did God “set my feet on a rock”?  It wasn’t the rock I had been praying for.  But maybe it was a better rock for this time in my life.

I started to count my blessings as opposed to my hardships, and I had to admit, this is a better rock then the one I had been coveting.  God heard my cry, pulled me from the mire, set my feet on solid ground, and made me see His new blessings.  “He put a new song in my mouth”, and I will sing “a hymn of praise to our God”